Poem introduction

'The Last Hellos' - a poem I wrote just three months after my father died in 1994. It's written in the kind of rough bush working man's language that we spoke to each other.

The Last Hellos

The Last Hellos

Don't die, Dad -
but they die.

This last year he was wandery:
took off a new chainsaw blade
and cobbled a spare from bits.
Perhaps if I lay down
my head'll come better again.
His left shoulder kept rising
higher in his cardigan.

He could see death in a face.
Family used to call him in
to look at sick ones and say.
At his own time, he was told.

The knob found in his head
was duck-egg size. Never hurt.
Two to six months, Cecil.

I'll be alright, he boomed
to his poor sister on the phone
I'll do that when I finish dyin.

*

Don't die Cecil.
But they do.

Going for last drives
in the bush, odd massive
board-slotted stumps bony white
in whipstick second growth.
I could chop all day.

I could always cash
a cheque, in Sydney or anywhere.
Any of the shops.

Eating, still at the head
of the table, he now missed
food on his knife side.

Sorry, Dad, but like
have you forgiven your enemies?
Your father and all them?
All his lifetime of hurt.

I must have (grin). I don't
think about that now.

People can't say goodbye
any more. They say last hellos.

Going fast, over Christmas,
He'd still stumble out
of his room, where his photos
hang over the other furniture,
and play host to his mourners.

The courage of his bluster
firm big voice of his confusion.

Two last days in the hospital:
his long forearms were still
red mahogany. His hands
gripped steel frame. I'm dyin.

On the second day:
You're bustin to talk
but I'm too busy dyin.

*

Grief ended when he died,
the widower like soldiers who
won't live life their mates missed.

Good boy Cecil! No more Bluey dog.
No more cowtime. No more stories.
We're still using your imagination,
it was stronger than all ours.

Your grave's got littler
somehow, in the three months.
More pointy as the clay's shrivelled,
like a stuck zip in a coat.

Your cricket boots are in
the State museum! Odd letters
still come. Two more's died since you:
Annie, and Stewart. Old Stewart.

On your day there was a good crowd,
family, and people from away.
But of course a lot had gone
to their own funerals first.

Snobs mind us off religion
nowdays, if they can.
Fuck them. I wish you God.


from New Collected Poems (Carcanet, 2003), copyright © Les Murray 2003, used by permission of the author and the publisher.

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1The Sleepout

2The Pure Food Act

3An Absolutely Ordinary Rainbow

4The Powerline Incarnation

5Employment for the Castes in Abeyance

6The Future

7Midsummer Ice

8Time Travel

9Hearing Impairment

10Poetry and Religion

11The Tin Wash Dish

12High Sugar

13On Removing Spiderweb

14Bats' Ultrasound

15Mollusc

16It Allows A Portrait in Line Scan at Fifteen

17The Shield-Scales of Heraldry

18Tympan Alley

19Burning Want

20The Last Hellos

21Cotton Flannelette

22One Kneeling, One Looking Down

23The Margin of Difference

24The Harleys

25The Holy Show

26Music to Me is like Days

27Rodd Island Wedding

27Rodd Island Wedding

28In the Costume of Andalusia

29On the Borders

30The Annals of Sheer

31Ernest Hemingway and the Latest Quake

32The Images Alone

33The Tin Clothes

34The Moon Man

35Succour

36Predawn in Health

37Visitor

38Starry Night

39Jellyfish

40Lace Curtain

41A Countryman

42In a Time of Cuisine

43The Pay for Fosterage

44A Study of the Nude

45The Knockdown Question

46Pop Music

47The Body in Physics

48The Climax of Factory Farming

49The Poisons of Right and Left

50Apsley Falls

51Portrait of a Felspar-Coloured Cat

52Explaining a Cheese

53A Shrine House

54Experience

55The Meaning of Existence

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