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But I Didn't

But I Didn't

I wanted to tell you it was alright to look for the lost child,
The spirit is delicate, we must nourish it,
But I didn't.

I wanted to tell you I shouldn't have thrown grenades,
You were on patrol in our bedroom,
But I didn't.

I wanted to tell you we shouldn't play blackmail games,
Words go out and return to judge us,
But I didn't.

I should have run with you under the moon more often,
Gone to where the fish were biting,
But I didn't.

I wanted to say I understood why you came home drunk,
Staring at the kids as if they had taken something from you,
But I didn't.

I wanted to say I shouldn't have served you a bowl of jealousy.
Eating the sweet blood of berries with your best friend,
But I didn't.

I wanted to tell you I loved you,
When you came back from the war,
But you didn't.


from The Pest Exterminator's Shakespeare (Macarthur Institute Press, 1984), © Gary Langford 1984, used by permission of the author.

Recordings

Gary Langford Reading from his Poems

1Introduction

2The Women of our Family

3The Men of Our City

4This Morning

5Reflections on the Beast

6The Family Takes a Commercial Break

7Pastoral

8TV Stars Week

9But I Didn't

10Detention

11From the Burns Unit

1221 Pieces of Advice on the Path to Wisdom

13Tom Paine 1946-

14Plan of Strange City

15I Say, You Say

16Parrot Lady

17At Writers Week

18History of Air

19Sheep in the Bay

20Flight of the Albatross

21Parable

22Alike 23Eggs

24Youth V Age

25Now That You've Gone

2613 Ways of Looking at Food

27Make War Not Love

28Baby Crying on an Autumn Morning

29What to Do in a Planecrash

30Being Old

31Rainwoman

32Fishbone

33The Garden

34She

35Glassroom Hill

36Migrants

37Nightwalk

38Determined Thought

39The Scholar Investigates a Classroom Crime

40Travelers

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