Poem introduction

This is about a film that runs backwards, a film of a wedding.

Home Movies

Home Movies

By the final frame of the film, before
the tinny rattle of a jerked reel
or that dazzle on the bald sitting-room wall,
Dad had leaped up beside the projector

and flicked the switch, so their shaky story
went ratcheting on, only backwards now:
led in by balloons, bouncing cans and clouds
of exhaust, the car came reversing surely

far too fast at the horseshoe of guests
crowding Gran's gravel, and we had to laugh
at the way our would-be father muffed
his entrance, emerging bottom first

to pose for a moment with his right arm
flung round an untarnished version of Mum.
No sound, just a pan of everyone
cracking up, the storm before the calm

delivery by Dad of some old joke.
Hilarious how they all skedaddled
backwards up the steps into the middle
of the reception: a piece of cake

that a waitress snatched; each hopeful wish
promptly returning unopened to sender
as the knife they were forcing up together
lifted off, leaving the icing unblemished;

a quick balancing trick put the tiers in place;
then unedited longueurs – little movement,
too many self-conscious close-ups of distant
relations and friends they'd lost without trace

and whom we'd never known - nothing comical
except for a slim-line uncle Jim
brightening as glass after glass of his wine
vanished, sucked up by the mouth of the bottle.

It was round about then, while we were all
full of it, paralytic at him
sobering up, that Mum left the room
with a kind of abruptness that niggled

(or would have, if we'd adjusted our focus,
not chosen not to notice) and so she missed
what followed: their ceremonial kiss
outside the church; Dad reaching across

to conceal her face with the antique veil;
and once the blinking guests had withdrawn
into the dark doorway arm in arm
he steered her backwards, helped by two small

bridesmaids tugging her train in towards
the vestry, the moment when he'd unscrew
his pen and one by one they'd undo
their signatures, going over the words

from right to left so they disappeared,
and suddenly the twinkle in Dad's eye
was a hard gleam in the flickering light
and the rare warmth of the atmosphere

too close: not one of us raised the ghost
of a laugh as Dad softly eased the ring
off the finger so gladly held out to him,
or dared interrupt to point out the past

was spilling out, already ankle-deep
on the floor and spreading. He stood so still
we didn't exist. There was nothing real
but that slither of negatives at his feet.


from The Man Alone: New and Selected Poems (Smith Doorstop, 2008), first published in In the Fruit Cage (Smith Doorstop, 1997), © Michael Laskey, 1997, used by permission of the author and The Poetry Business.

Recordings

Michael Laskey Reading from His Poems

1Cucumber

2Nowadays

3Family Planning

4Registers

5Living with the Doctor

6On My Own

7Between Two Lit Rooms

8The Clothes-peg

9Rain

10The Flat-warming

11Nobody

12Offering

13Not Before Time

14Fried Potatoes

15Picking Raspberries with My Mother

16Ratatouille

17Breakfast

18Service

19Laying the Fire

20Driving Home

21The Day After

22Afterlife

23Life After Death

24Home Movies

25Permission to Breathe

26The Tightrope Wedding

27Concert

28The Page Turner

29The Right Place

30Not That He Wrote Poems

31Tinkling Cymbal

32The Man Alone

33The Corpse

34The Last Swim

Books by Michael Laskey